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[20 Aug 2009|05:12pm] |
Warded Private:
The castle's a bit cozier now that we have more occupants, even if I can't say I wholly trust the lot of them. There are very, very few people I do trust unconditionally these days, though, so I've resigned to accepting the company as best I can. Dora loves meeting all the new people, and she's getting quite fed up with my strict instruction to either stay by my side at all times or within the safety of someone's watch. She'd much rather run about the castle and she's starting to get so reckless. Perhaps if I go work on fortifying the grounds today I'll let her play nearby in the outdoors. She likes the courtyards well enough, but I think she likes to think she has the whole expanse of Hogwarts to explore.
There aren't many who've taken up residence in the dungeons of Slytherin with me. It may seem odd, and I think Dora prefers the coziness of Hufflepuff or Gryffindor, but it was my home while I was here. Many things have changed over the years, but I enjoyed my time at school, and in my house, even if looking back on it now I may not have approved of my attitude at the time. I would choose Ted over my nostalgia for the times of past again and again, but that doesn't mean the nostalgia is gone. I remember Cissy and I used to have tea here every Sunday before I left school.
She couldn't have known about this. She had a child born this summer, how could she ever? What has my little sister gotten herself into? This must be why they've targeted Lily with such intensity. And why they killed Neville. I wonder... was I supposed to know of these dangers? When I was gone, perhaps... oh dear...
Warded to Narcissa:
Did you know that this is what they were doing in your establishment? Please tell me you didn't, darling, please tell me you weren't a part of this disgusting act of infanticide. Draco was born in June.
Warded to James:
How are you holding up, dear? Any word on coming to Hogwarts soon?
Disgusting. That is all I can manage to say on the matter.
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[13 Aug 2009|10:21pm] |
Warded to Sirius:
We did it.
It should have been you there, not me, but... I tried my best, love.
I think he's back. I think James will be okay.
Is it odd that all I want right now is one of your hugs?
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| 009. |
[13 Aug 2009|09:14pm] |
Warded to Julianne Wilkes:
Hello, Julianne. It's been so long, hasn't it? I know this may seem incredibly out of the blue, however, even though I was disowned by my family, I still very much tried to keep track of my cousin's life. You were his fiance, and my little calender has informed me it is your birthday. I would say happy birthday, but I know it is hard to wish for as much these days. I'll say I hope you are as well as you can be. I realised when I saw your name that... well, with Sirius' passing - I know you still spoke with him.
I've lost so many people in this world, and I can't help but feel that if I don't reach out to those I've been friendly with in the past, all my loved ones and friends will quickly be snuffed out, as morbid as that sounds...
So I suppose this is my attempt at salvaging some of the ties to friends I might have, and to ask how you are doing? I'm sorry you've lost both of them... I can hardly- well, you know. I know you might not want anything to do with me, with my reputation as a blood traitor, but I had to try. I'd have sent you something, but I'm afraid I haven't been home, let alone into town to shop in some time.
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| 008. |
[11 Aug 2009|05:38pm] |
Warded to the Order:
On display?! I feel sick.
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| 007. |
[10 Aug 2009|07:50am] |
Warded Private:
I have had enough. I will not sit idly by and let her hurt more innocent people, or my loved ones - the few I may have left. I cannot stand for this anymore. If Bellatrix Lestrange is not dead by the time this is over, I will find her and kill her myself. I did not want to, she was my sister - but she has taken too much from me to merit my sympathy, respect, or love any longer. She cannot be allowed to hurt anyone else, and I know that no cell will hold her for long enough to do any good.
I cannot believe the young pureblooded women of "society" these days. Was I ever so daft? Was I ever so morally manipulated and apathetic? Narcissa isn't like them at all. I don't know how she stands it, being amongst such vapid, empty, unindependant beings. The Blacks raised intelligent and clever children... perhaps that was their mistake. I hope I haven't angered Cissy too much, but I wish she would see my point of view. I forget sometimes how hard it must have been for her, our parents and Bella telling her to cast me out and I asked for her love and understanding.
It was so much easier before I ever returned to them, but if it's meant I can speak with my baby sister once more, even if it's rarely been pleasantries, it was worth it. I miss Alice and Frank so much. I miss Sirius. I miss the godson I never got to know.
I need Ted.
I will stop scrambling for my daughter's life, and begin fighting for her future, as he did. I just hope I don't make her future motherless in the process. I'm so tired of crying.
Warded to James:
Lily has agreed to give up Sirius' body... she just requested a couple days so we can have a small memorial for him here.
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[08 Aug 2009|04:15pm] |
Warded to Alice & Frank:
Please.
There's no Frank for me to help-
There's no godson to raise
No
I CAN'T
don't leave me too
I'm not strong enough for this. Warded to Narcissa:
I've lost everyone but you, and Dora. Warded to James:
I
there's no one left to trust.
Warded to Moody:
I don't know what to do anymore.
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| 005. |
[07 Aug 2009|10:18am] |
( Warded Private )
Warded to James:
So, how did it feel - holding him?
Warded to Lily & Remus:
I believe we can trust James with Sirius' last wishes. The owl he received was written after he'd already been influenced by the centre, and Sirius' decision for James to handle his requests did not change. I think we should honor it, and I think that this is something we can ultimately trust him in.
Would you be willing to pass Sirius' on to him?
Warded to Frank:
There is still so much I wanted to do and retrieve at my home, but in the current atmosphere, I believe going back alone is unwise. Would you accompany me one afternoon you're free? Not for long, of course, just to get a few things for Dora. A few things of Ted's. I don't know how long we'll need to stay stationed at the school, so I'd like her to be as comfortable as possible.
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[03 Aug 2009|08:35am] |
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Warded to Narcissa:
Regulus, Sirius, Ted... if in the end, I... If I'm gone, and her godparents are gone, if this side loses this war- would you at all consider taking Dora?
Sirius- Do you know anything at all, Cissy? Was it her?
Warded to James:
I'm at home again, away from- I don't know. The other house? The Order? What am I protecting my daughter from, James? What wards do I need to have on my home?
Do you need anything, love? Do you want to visit at all - I know you probably can't, but... I just don't know of anyone else who- You and I were the only family he had left. I don't want to be alone right now.
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[02 Aug 2009|08:01pm] |
Warded to James:
James - Sirius 
he's gone. he's here, but he - there was so much blood
I'm sorry, I should be
You needed to know.
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[30 Jul 2009|04:54pm] |
Warded to Bellatrix:
I wish I could say I was sorry and mean it.
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[30 Jul 2009|03:52pm] |
Warded to Sirius:
I can't do it anymore, Sirius. I ran away, Bella killed him, I couldn't stand to be in that house. If she did that to my husband, I can't trust her with my daughter. Of course, you knew all this, didn't you... please save any 'I told you so'. I was so terrified and I still am. I've been hiding for over a month now, and it hasn't gotten any easier. It's hardly safe, but I didn't know what to do - I put a giant target on both our backs if I come stay with the Order, but staying in Muggle areas just means that when they attack, because we all know eventually they will, Dora and I might be there to suffer.
I'm so lost. I don't trust my sisters anymore and that breaks my heart, but I trust you, and the Order. I'm coming home. I need Dora safe, but Ted - he and I joined the Order together and for a reason. I felt like all my support and drive and will to continue left with him, but now that I've had time away, and to see what this awful war has made one of my sisters become... I can't just run from it all. I'm not brave like you, but I want to help. For Ted. And for you.
Oh, dear cousin, are you even all right? I've missed you. I'm so sorry I left you like this. How is James? Any better?
Warded to Frank & Alice:
I'm coming home. Do you know if it's safe there? And Alice, dear, how are you? Aren't you due any day now? Have you already had the baby? I can't believe I've missed your last month - I just panicked. I hope you both can forgive me. Frank, you too. I'm sorry I didn't listen.
And nevermind about the baby questions, I'm so ecstatic for you!
Warded to Narcissa:
I had to leave. I'm sorry. I can only hope that someday you'll understand. Please don't speak of this to Bella.
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